My shadow totem.................

I had a dream one night of a cougar that chasd me into the lake, when i was in this lake i thought i was safe and to my surpise i was not, the cougar came in after me, the cougar in my dream was a talented swimmer and strong, when it reached me i tried to fight it off, to no avail it kept pushing me under the water, as i was fighting for my breath and my life i manged to reach up and grab him on both sides of the face as he twisted and turned his head my thumbs had slipped into his jaws and he bit down and bit down hard, i can remember the sound of bone crunching and the cold feeling of not having my thumbs, after this happened the cougar turned and swam back to shore and took off....I woke up.....there were some bad things going on in my life but i never quite got the message of the cougar, about 2 years later i was taken back to this same dream and the loud thought pattern of the cougar, and he said,(THAT IS WHAT I WAS TRYING TO TELL YOU ABOUT) and then i woke, i had lost two very percious things in my life and the dream and the loss of my thumbs were the symbols of what i lost...it was a very powerful moment for me, and i laid there and cried for then i now knew what i had lost i could have saved if only i had listened to the cougar.................A shadow totem is a totem of the animal you are afraid of, one that you are afraid of embracing into your life or running into in the wild, according to native american legend if you do not embrace the shadow totem it will haunt and follow you and cause havoc in your life till you do....

COUGAR Muscles rippling, free on the mountains, Great cat of cunning, hunting and seeking, Teach me quietness and stealth of purpose. Show me the secrets of quiet magic. Leadership This is a very powerful, but very difficult totem. Cougar medicine is the lesson of the use of power, how to be an effective, fair leader and not abuse power. This totem’s gift is how to balance power, intention, strength and grace. It is the balance of body, mind and spirit. The first responsibility of leadership is truth. Remember: Responsibility is no more than the ability to respond to any situation. Cougar can teach you how to bring out your power and fill your heart with it that will enable you to take charge of your life. You can use Cougar power to defend yourself or to attack.